What you mean to me

Can the inexpressible be ever expressed? Can we form words that truly depict what we honestly feel within our heart?

I have tried but no matter the language Or the words, I have failed to highlight what I truly feel.

It’s not because you are an enigma, but the subtle bond that we share is.

You…When I remember your name, it reminds me of the purity and innocence of a child.

You…When I remember your voice, it ignites a positive vibe  which reverberates “Everything is possible” deep within the confines of my heart.

You…When I remember your presence, I remember the constant pull, to be with you, to be near you, to know that you are there.

You…When I need inspiration, I remember your journey, your sacrifices, your struggles and your achievements. I feel a sense of pride and immense joy for you are a conqueror of Positive over Negative.

I don’t know what you mean to me.

But what I do know, is that you are an inspiration for the achievers, beacon of hope for the failures and a balm of compassion for the weak.

You… are my hero, my pride, my aim and my guide.



Last Christmas…

When I heard that George Michael had passed away in his sleep, I felt so many different emotions.  I still remember the day when I had listened to Last Christmas for the first time..It was as if my heart spoke for the first time! It has been my comfort song for over two decades whenever I have fallen out of a relatownship. The lyrics is like a balm to my aching soul. The song sounds magical especially this time of the year. For people  like me who have had their heart broken on numerous occasions, this song means so much more..It describes my innermost  turmoil with Love and how I have come up empty handed in my all my past relationships.

As another year passes by, I sit by my window hoping the coming new year to make my heart whole again..to fill me up with the sweet nectar of love and longing and never let it dry up ever again. I enjoy Christmas more than my birthday because Christmas to me is the day to celebrate love, and all its magnificent colours. I wish with my whole heart that I too find that someone whom I can love with all my heart and who won’t give it away for anything in the world..

Thank you George for your love! Rest in peace, dearest friend. 

Being Courteous 

When I first moved to Delhi, I was shocked with how people generally behaved in public with each other. Being from Kolkata myself, Delhites’ brash, rude behavior and their notorious vocal vulgarity disgusted me.
I figured being courteous wasn’t default to a Delhites nature as opposed to a calcuttan. People from Kolkata generally are soft spoken and respectful. They are also courteous and polite in their conversations and have deep appreciation for both art and science.

Being courteous isn’t just a social phenomenon but is highly required in the professional world as well. In today’s organizations where competition is high and demands are endless, its a challenge for many managers to handle their teams without loosing their cool and calm. Even though I am not in a managerial position, I have realized over my two and a half years of corporate experience that being courteous to your team and being sensitive to their working style helps foster a positive and secure working space amongst the team members.

I came across a wonderful article on WSJ which spoke of how professional courtesy is very important in today’s organizations. According to a research conducted by the writer, the new employees look up to their managers who is appreciative of their efforts and works along with them to get the job done.

In today’s corporates, talent acquisition teams are constantly looking for ways to improve employee engagement within and outside their teams. Retaining talents has become one of the pain points of leading corporates across sectors. In such turbulent times, it pays for a company in the long run to invest in their managers and send them for managerial training and self development workshops. For self development workshops managers can be taught the ancient and the most useful art of Yoga and Meditation. Managers can handle their teams more efficiently and effectively if they can learn to calm their emotions and tired mind. This in turn will lead to more clarity, increased focus and a sense of belongingness.

Employees will always respond to an individual who can help them feel an important part of himself and the team. Employees will never leave an organization if they feel their personal goals are being met, their skills being nurtured and also see their future five years down the line up the management ladder.

Today it’s not about getting the job done but the Manner in which the job is being done.

Alleviating Pain

I have no shame in admitting that I am depressed. I am in pain and need help. I have even pondered over killing myself for an easy fix to my problems. But reality is, that taking away my life would only exacerbate my suffering.

The only remedy that I have found to my pain is to help and guide people out of their problems. When people approach me with their problems, I never turn them away. I try to help them to the best of my ability or connect them to someone who can help them out but I never flat out refuse them. I have been in tight spots in the past and sometimes I have had people show me the way, but most of the times I have figured it out myself. It’s only fair that I use my knowledge pool from my experience to help people who reach out to me.

I personally find it very enriching and equally satisfying  to assist people in their hour of need. Helping others is a two way street. When we help others, we  get healed from within. The negativity disappears and the inner light of peace and happiness shines through. The satisfaction of putting someone at ease mentally and physically is unparalleled! I feel very happy when I see them walk away with a smile on their lips.

Everyone should have a mentor in life who can be the guide in darkest of times and hour of need. I have been lucky to have few who in their best interests for me, continue to guide in  both matters of spiritual and worldly affairs.

The next time someone comes to you for help, first hear them out. Be patient with their query and if possible, then offer them your assistance. Who knows, your help may act as the biggest influence on someone’s life. Or you may end up saving someone from committing suicide. Either way, you will win.




Looking for Satisfaction

Since my childhood days, i have always aspired to do things differently. Things which others thought cannot be done, i wanted to get involved with. I thought doing difficult things would bring me satisfaction and peace of mind. But little did i realize, my ego was playing me.

When i went to college, i chose to pursue Bachelors in Commerce because to me it was the next logical step. Boy was i wrong! Accountancy and its ilk proved to be Dante’s seventh circle of hell! No matter how much i practiced, the problems came at me like the plague and drove me insane! I quickly realized that a career in finance isn’t meant for me.

After getting initiated into Sudarshan Kriya, I got a glimpse of what it means have peace of mind! For the first time, my racing mind stopped and i had no answer or question for anything or anybody. I felt like a witness to the outside world. This brought a sense of tranquility and peace in my life.

Over the course of 10 years of practicing meditation, i have realized that it’s our ego which clouds our viveka and misdirects us towards things that requires extra effort. It creates a false notion that we will be rewarded and favored if we do the tough things. And this very thought sends us in an unending cycle of sleepless nights, stress and demand which not only destroys our peace of mind but also adversely affects our physical health.

Recently I have come to realize that i have become a victim of my ego’s foolish pursuit of success and recognition infinite times and i am tired of it’s errands. All i want now, is to sit quietly and let my mind become still and silent and discover the world within with infinite possibilities and no limitations. I don’t want to become a puppet at the hands of time in this lifetime!

I want to embrace the higher purpose of my life and enjoy the company of learned and wise men and women, who can guide me to the higher planes of existence. That is the satisfaction i seek, for nothing else in this world is worth my inner peace and mental well being.

For her

Once I caught sight of you, it was only you.. my heart wanted to stare, but my eyes were too shy
Now as I write this, I remember the song Can’t take my eyes off you by Frankie Valli. The lyrics echo my feelings perfectly.. 

You’re just too good to be true, can’t keep my eyes off you.. 

You’d feel like heaven to touch, I wanna hold you so much.. 

At long last love has arrived and I thank God I’m alive.. 

You’re just too good to be true, can’t take my eyes off of you.. 

Pardon the way that I stare, there’s nothing else to compare,  the sight of you makes me weak.. 

There are no words left to speak, but if you feel like how I feel, please let me know that it’s real… 

You’re just too good to be true, can’t take my eyes off of you.. 

When you caught my eye, you smiled.. There was grace and beauty in that smile.. 

I don’t want to write further because I fear I may limit that experience in words. It was inexpressible and wonderful. You are very beautiful! 

Chand sa roshan chehra, zulfon ka rang sunehra, yeh jheel si neeli aankhen, koi raaz hain inme gehra..Tareef karun kya uski jisne tumhe banaya! 

To the journey within..

The nine nights (Navaratri) is an experience which is beyond any form of expression. But here i am trying to pen down the inexpressible for you! The  nine nights celebrate the journey from gross to the most subtle of existence. It celebrates the realization of our true nature, our one true form. During this nine nights, the feminine energy in the universe is worshiped according to the ancient vedic traditions. These nine nights were magical for me! The first three nights are the days of Tamas. Tamas is one of the three qualities which helps us relax and sleep. During those three days, i caught myself yawning at 10 AM in the morning! You may wonder “Whats new in this? You require more sleep” But if you become aware of your own mind-body complex you will notice these subtle changes more clearly. Despite the heavy influence of Tamas during the first three days, i was able to meditate deeply. The next three days were of Rajas which helps us in any form of activity. Imbalance of this element leads to restlessness in us. During these days, i witnessed my mind over working in planning for the day ahead for any activity. Just being aware of this phenomenon is surreal and made me realize that we are an intimate part of nature. All our actions are governed by our  thoughts which is influenced by our surroundings, environment and the company we keep. The last three days were of Satva which helps bring luck, prosperity, joy and overall balance in our lives.

These past week i have been feeling gratitude towards all those who have been instrumental in getting me on this path. I can never thank them enough for getting me on the spiritual path. The most difficult task for any human being is to find a spiritual guide (Guru) who can guide him/her to liberation. I have been incredibly lucky to been chosen by Sri Sri Ravi Shankar as his disciple and i will always remain in debted to HIM for teaching me the powerful breathing technique, Sudarshan Kriya to handle the daily negativity in my life. Thank you Mom Dad and Guruji for this beautiful life 🙂





Favoritism kills talent in an organization period

When the the man at the reins favors someone  too much, its a disaster in making.

I am not saying its a bad thing, but giving equal opportunity to the employees on learning about the business, grooming, helping them polish their skills is what matters

And when that doesn’t  happen, well it kills talent, enthusiasm and joy of working in an organization.

People at the helm should know, what they are doing is wrong.They are running a company not a family! They should learn to know where to stop and draw a line. Employees can see, mind you and once they decide to leave, the company will loose a bright talent, not mentioning the money went in training him or her.

The last time i decided to air my feelings on MY blog, i was told i cant and on top of that my post was copied and stored on on email to show me my mistake.

Well, this time i don’t care.

And please do forgive my poor writing, if you happen to be reading this sad post. I am still learning to pen down my feelings in perfect english.


Desiderata – Desired Things

We all want o be “Happy” But Happiness isn’t something to be pursued. It is to realize the inner bounty of Grace and the outside need of service

This is a famous prose poem by Max Ehrmann who is known to have composed it in 1927.

“Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.

Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexatious to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter, for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.

Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.

Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here.

And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be.

And whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful.

Strive to be happy!”

We want to be happy, independent and free in our lives. We associate happiness with the things that we want most, may that be a job, object, partner or an experience.

I want the same things too and i have been running form pillar to post trying to achieve “Happiness”. But what i fail to register in my constantly buzzing mind is that happiness is right here, this moment. It is in the heartbeat, the inhalation, the sound of running water and even the hum of an air conditioner!

There are days when i fail to register the magnificence of the universe, because i am so caught up in my always planning head. And there are days where even an auto driver’s driving reminds me of how nature takes care of us! Today is one of those days, where i am choosing to share my thoughts with you.

I love this poem. Because it talks about maintaining your inner calm despite the storm outside. It is very easy to get lost in the chaos of the world, but it takes skill, perseverance and  dedication to stick to your integrity, honesty and  centredness to remain untouched by the events of ever changing world. That’s my true aim, TO BE.

I care about my words, i care about my behaviour with strangers and family and promises that i make. I wish i could drop my desire completely and just be one with my self. No regrets, no heart breaks, just help people to be happy and smile genuinely!

Life is a mystery because the journey i have had till date has been nothing short of spectacular! Its been a myriad seemingly un-connected roads which have shaped me into the individual that i am today. It has given me so many gifts, some by taking away my false realities and some in form of friends like Vinay for whom words aren’t enough!

All the gifts that nature has so compassionately bestowed upon me have made me even more grateful and in awe of its benevolence and love. Sometimes i rebuke myself for committing a mistake and don’t forgive myself easily.But i should remember that nature loves me very dearly like it does every single being on this planet. If it can forgive me for all my wrong doings then i can be more gentle and compassionate with myself. By practicing compassion with myself, only then can i be more forgiving and understanding with others. Only then can i rise up to be a sensitive and strong leader.

I received a mail today from a dearest friend of mine with whom i have adored for long.She is doing a absolutely wonderful work in the north east states of our country and bridging gap between them and other states in the light of racial disharmony and government negligence. She inspires me a LOT. I wish i was strong as her, as determined as her, to be able to give up every comfort and desire and be dedicated towards serving the society and bringing a smile in to all the faces!

I am incredibly lucky to know such lucky souls who have given up their life of comfort and self desire to serve the not so fortunate to and give them a sense of peace, calm and love into their lives. When i meet them i am awed by the glow on their face and the smile on their lips! They tell me stories about their adventures which makes me feel so ashamed of my whimsical like complaints. They live and serve in conditions which would be highly challenging for an urban bred guy like me. But yet they continue despite the challenges with a indomitable spirit and iron clad commitment.

I am surrounded by inspiration! All i need is the strength to take the next step

All i need is the blessing of my Gurudev and my best friends to be truly free from my wants and Just Be!

Freedom from pleasure and desire..Just Be!


Looking Forward

What i loved about 2015,that i got to try new things and meet new people.

Another year has gone by. Do i regret the passed year? No. Could i have done things differently? Perhaps.

2015 was a year when i received a lot of fair advises from all round. My peers, seniors, know-ers, and back-bitters, had some opinion to shower on me on how to get work done. Some made sense, some were weird, rest were trash.

What i loved about 2015, was i got a lot of opportunities to learn something new and try different things. It was exciting, nerve racking but fun nonetheless. Communication (work) can be harrowing sometimes and may lead to quick burn out but the adrenaline rush is unbeatable!

My New year resolution?

To best myself and not get lost in fallacies