Ambrosia 2.0

Its been a LOOONNG wait, but it’s finally here!

I am super happy to present Ambrosia 2.0,  14 of top tracks in Trance and Progressive in 2015 mixed for you 🙂 I hope you enjoy listening to it as much as i enjoyed mixing it 😀

Playlist for the Mix

  1. Salva Mea 2.0 (Above & Beyond Remix) – Faithless
  2. Landmines (Heatbeat Remix) – Pierce Fulton feat. J.Hart
  3. Don – Orjan Nielsen
  4. Escape (Heatbeat Remix) – Sebastien feat. Satellite Empire
  5. Now We are Talking  – Orjan Nielsen
  6. Panta Rhei – Armin Van Buuren & Max Sigma
  7. You Deserve Life (Mino Safy Remix) – Kaimo K & Cathy Burton
  8. Gotham Serenade (New York City) – Markus Schulz, Fisherman & Hawkins
  9. Going Home (Jorn Van Deynhoven Remix) – Cosmic Gate & Emma Hewitt
  10. Another You (Ronski Speed Remix) – Armin Van Buuren feat Mr Probz
  11. Skyocean – Daniel Kandi & Max Braiman
  12. Tomahawk (2015 Rework) – Allen Watts
  13. Suburban Train (Jordan Suckley Remix) – Tiesto
  14. A New Age (FSOE 400 Anthem) – Aly & Fila with Omar Sherif & Jonathan Carvajal

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Sweet & Sour

It’s been long again, since my last post but I have a good news to share with you. I got placed via campus recruitment in Asia’s largest PR firm, called Adfactors PR. They are well known in the world of financial communication and are the biggest in the fraternity! To say I am happy would be an understatement because I am over the moon! 😀 And the best part, I get to work under, my professional role model, Mr. Samir Kapur, who is the Senior Vice President of the company and also an adjunct faculty at IIMC.

Life at IIMC is coming to a close with only 2 weeks remaining for the end of this course. To be brutally honest, I will not miss this place. At least not for the obvious reasons. This place has an over hyped reputation in the market. And it’s not misplaced, mind you. The hype, comes entirely from the full time and adjunct professors, who are some of the best minds in the country. The students on the other hand including the sod writing this piece are just sad ending of a miserable love story. The students are brilliant, talented but utterly dysfunctional when it comes to synchronicity or cohesive working to get a job done. There is a basic lack of discipline which resembles the culture of this city. Being dynamic doesn’t mean one has to be abusive or insensitive to others, but it is worn proudly as a batch to gel in this culture. Individuals expect too much from others than focusing on their own, actions and behaviors leading to dysfunctionality within working groups. It’s sad to imagine, the condition of their future married life if these traits were to continue. People are judged on their academic scores by their peers than their intellectual capability which in turn leads to alienation and formation of closed groups of friends which is a sad reality.

Is IIMC a place to be? Yes. Will it help my career? Definitely, Yes. Will I make lasting friendships over here? Probably not.  What’s the best part about IIMC? Teachers, Teachers, Teachers.

Acrimony

What did i ever do, to deserve such acrimony, o fate!

Do i really belong here? Will i ever make it? When will i be victorious over my demons? The battle within rages on unabated. I have no answers and the demons from the past continue to hound me. I feel like a hypocrite sometimes, because i cannot seem to take my own advice. I feel left out, and out of place on this ambitious podium, where hunger for self gratification is promoted as the key to success. I have no one to confide my fears in, no one to clap my back and console me. Right now i crave for the physical presence of that individual who could see me in my vulnerable state and listen to me.

Some days i wish, i should die but my rational mind negates my emotions by reminding me of my Guru’s words “Suicide is the opposite of evolution” O, Guru! I want to walk on your path, i want to be a beacon of hope, peace and right action to all, but i am unable to do so! Is this part of who i am in this birth or is this my destiny? If its my destiny then when will this tunnel of darkness end? Its been 28 years and i don’t believe i can keep up any longer!

I don’t know what is my passion, or what my career should be. It seems the things that i am good at have no real value in the “real life”. The ethics, values, beliefs that i hold dear aren’t the money making tools! But i am nothing without them! Strip me out of those and i cease to exist. i am a man out of my time and depth. Maybe the 60’s and the 70’s would have been proper for me.

I wait o fate for ye to lift thy axe from my over burdened shoulder and set me free!

Ongoing Crisis

Its been long since my last post and i figured its about time, i shared some of my experiences since my arrival in Delhi.

Well for starters, my life has been a hot tangy gooey mess, since August. Emotional roller coaster rides one after the other has been suffocating to say the least. My spiritual practice has suffered due too in-decisions in my head (quite a few). I thought, studying in a country level institute would help me increase not only my intellectual ability but also allow me to contribute to the knowledge and experience pool  through discussions and debates. But its been disappointing so far. The students (major chunk from Delhi and Neighboring areas) have this schoolish attitude of of not sharing what they have read or even if they have, its hidden away, so that it will get them good grades?!

I mean, seriously?! Today’s world where we have access to information much more easily than public toilets in Delhi, mere reading up is not going to help increase your intellect capability in any way. You will just be left with large chunks of biased information of someone’s else mind roaming around in your head making you no more than a parrot. The only way one can gain intellect maturity, when one discusses the latest issues,  media theories, management  and marketing models, PR techniques with peers and the teachers. Then you not only add to your intellect a clear understanding of what you have read but also help in contributing to the knowledge pool.

The only good thing, that i have found studying here are some of lecturers who go beyond than just merely teaching us. They inspire and encourage despite your shortcomings and are willing to walk beside you to help you set you on your path to your desired goal. Such teachers are rare breed of intellectuals, who are difficult to come by in today’s world of materialism. I am happy to mention that Naren Singh, Amit Sengupta, Ramesh Tahiliani of IIMC are some of the finest teachers, that i have come across in my student life.

Right now we have end of semester exams going on and i ended up screwing up the very subject in which ii want to make a career in..Public Relations/Corporate Communication. If i just get passing grades, that would be good enough, that much how badly i screwed up the paper.. :/

Placement week will be held from 16th to 28th February. I hope i am able to bag a good paying job for my immediate survival, because money, food, and clothes are not given in charity and the ones that are given away, are too crap to be of any significant use.

Anyways i am babbling now; Until next post!

 

A Conversational Meeting

During our daily travels we come across many people but some leave their marks on us which changes our perception towards our life. It was one such day, today.

On my way way back home, i happened to board a wrong train which usually, doesn’t happen with me. And i came to know about it when i reached a station called Diara. 

I got down, and went and sat down on a bench intending to wait for the train for my journey back. There happened to sit an old man, who enquired about me and asked about my predicament. I told him about the train and he smiled and he said that it happens to the best of men, so don’t beat yourself with it. 

And we got talking.

The more we talked the more i became engrossed in his conversation. He shared his experiences with me and even i shared my feelings about some of the issues that had been troubling me recently, and the advices that he gave me made me feel so light within. Talking with him, and i felt as if i have known him forever. The stress of the whole week had just seeped out of me, by just talking and smiling with him.  

By the time, my train arrived, i was not ready to leave as i wanted to spend some more time with him. He confessed to me that its been ages since he enjoyed a conversation as much as he did today. Saying that, he wished me farewell and saw to that, i boarded the train. 

I had tears in my eyes for i knew in my heart that i will miss meeting him and having this delightful conversation again. He, with his simplicity has made a place in my heart where i shall cherish this Conversational Meeting forever.   

Piano Concertos of Mozart by Vladimir Ashkenazy

I listen to western classical occasionally whenever time and mood permits. I listen to Chopin and Debussy but had never tried Mozart until recently. I had downloaded The Complete Piano Concertos of Mozart by Vladimir Ashkenazy in FLAC format in 2010 but never got any chance to listen to it and had completely forgotten about it. Today while going through my HD I came across the album and decided to convert it to MP3 to listen to it on my iPod. After an hour of edit and copy pasting, i got all the ten cds onto my iPod. Boy, was I in for a surprise when I started listening to it! I may sound like a plebeian here but each and every track is so beautifully composed and i am sure they sounded as close as to how The Master wanted it to! It sounded so beautiful and elegant that it felt like I was right there listening to Vladimir conduct with Philharmonia Orchestra! I plan to definitely buy this and other beautiful renditions by Vladimir Ashkenazy.

I strongly recommend that you listen to this masterpiece atleast once in your life and if possible with a good pair of headphones or sound system and in FLAC or with an original audio disc.

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Winter-thought

I have been pondering of how to begin this but then any day is a good day for something creative. Its winter time and I have been wondering if it coincides with the moods of the people here. Winter is the time when you shed all your inhibitions ( apart from your clothes 😉 ) and greet everyone with the most glamorous smile you have been blessed with. But unfortunately not everyone follows this train of thought. Some decide it is supposedly cool to be to be a frustrated pig and go around spreading their disgusting smell everywhere. No matter what you say or do will make them leave their disgusted ways. Someone has said that there is a lot of unexpressed love in everyone’s life but if this the way they express their “love” then thanks, I don’t need it. I am better off with the “unexpressed” than the “expressed.”

 

Its called being smart & not in-sensitive.

My Experience

Living life believing that there’s going to be better Tomorrow doesn’t  work when there’s darkness everywhere you look and the people you counted on left you to rot.

I believed my life was great until I was shown the other scarier half, my ears didn’t want to believe what was being told to me, but self denial only gets you near to the edge and that’s exactly what happened.
“Life knocks you down you get back up” I wanted to believe this line but somehow didn’t have the strength to. Family was falling, relationships were souring and the very essence that meant to bind together our life, love was fading away like the winter sun eager to escape the cold clasp of the dark night.
I had no idea where my life was heading or wether I would be able to survive each day of the torture.
I still remember the day, when I heard from my dad that there’s a possibility of us having to give up our house as it will  taken over by the bank. My Dad wanted to hear something optimistic from me but I was too numb to say anything.

Days seemed like years and I wanted to end my life to save my parents atleast my father from having one more mouth to feed. Being all grown up and not being able to work or provide for the people you care about is the most distressing and depressing thought for a man.

Days went by living in dread, when one evening I saw my parents smiling for the first time in months. The bank had agreed to an agreement proposed by my dad. I felt happy seeing them so relieved and stress free.
Now paying that agreement money was a hurdle; how do we do that? My mother had no jewelry left to sell and there were no assets left either. Then my aunt stepped in and she helped us pay all that amount. She is our guardian angel, without whom even this epistle would not have been possible.
I had thought that my Guru had abandoned me but He sent his best to protect my family and has sent a few more to help me conquer my demons and rise above the golden net of mundane and attain self realization.

Guru Grace
Guru Grace
Gurur Brahmaa Gurur Vishnuh
Gurur Devo Maheshvarah
Gurur Saakshaat Parabrahma
Tasmai Shree Gurave Namah.

Love

Have you ever looked up in the sky and thought about that someone special? Someone, who will light up the darkest corners of our hearts; who finds a special mention in our daily prayers and is on our minds 24×7.

Our entire life is spent on searching this special One but seldom do we do it with an open heart.

All I am saying that we are not open to love. We don’t let it light our hearts and give us those breathless moments because we are busy searching.

I ask you, who is a special one? Someone who is close to our heart, who understands us better than we do ourselves and will do everything in their power to keep us happy.

Most of the time we have so high expectation from ourselves that we fail to realize what we truly need. We fail to recognize those who could have been our ‘breathless moments’

It’s because of these ‘expectations’ that we get stuck with the dust, when actually we could have gotten the diamond.

Your special one may not have six packs or an hourglass figure, but if we are willing to open our hearts and have faith in love, then we all can have our Happily Ever After. 🙂

 

 

Motherhood

In India, Motherhood which when followed within the rules of the society is respected else denounced. Why is it so? Is it our heritage that binds us and compels us to behave like animals?

I disagree. The mere fact that we too were nurtured within our mother’s womb has been either lost or rather they conveniently choose to ignore it. From small it has been hardwired into us by the society and the media that Conceiving before marriage is forbidden. When we asked for the reason, we were told either to shut up or narrated some religious phrase with the additional advice that persons committing it will be denounced.

I wonder who “marries” off the animals because they too conceive and give birth to their progeny. Some may argue that they are animals, but I say that if they are part of the same universal consciousness then why it should be any different for us.

A woman who conceives and wishes to stay a single mom is very much an alien concept in our country. She seldom finds support in the society. What is her crime? She wanted to raise a child all by herself!

Here I find myself asking, why we can’t respect Motherhood. Keeping the issues aside, we should respect a woman for the mere fact that she is going to be a Mother and lend her all our support.

In a land, where we worship Mother Divine, this should be each and everyone’s responsibility to help in whichever way possible to a woman experiencing Motherhood. We should all drop the garb of an authoritarian and become more compassionate.

Only then can we dream of a place where Motherhood & Mothers both are respected and revered, where She won’t have to struggle and will have the freedom and the support that She desires.